eek!

Today has been...busy.
I didn't have time to eat breakfast until damn near 11am.
I didn't have time period for a lunch.
I had dinner at 7 - which is normal.
But at the end of the day I realized I'd consumed a whooping 700 calories - that's it. Not a good thing.
So I ate some cheese - fat, protien, and calories. Mucho helpful.
I got up to 1100. Still not good, I need to get close to at least 1800 a day really. With my basal metabolism being so high, I should probably be eating a lot more - ok probably is an understatement.

The thing is, if I write down what I eat then I automatically eat less. I've had doctors and nutritionist all but call me a liar when they've seen my food journals. How is it possible to eat ONLY that much and still be fat? Well because I only eat just that much when I'm writting down what I eat. You'd think that this knowledge would lead me to the skinny light at the end of the lardass tunnel, right? Nope. Cause I've had this habit in the past of not writing things when I had an off day and went down off the sundae deep end. I'd just be embarassed of how much I ate that one day and not write it. Well that gave me the liberty to not write a whole lot. And then I gain weight.

So new approach? I'm very laid back on numbers. There is no complex formula for alotting calories at specific intervals throughout the day. There are no limits that shame me into cheating. There is only one rule - write it down honestly. So yes, that means I'm measuring things - but not to control calories, no its to maintain honesty with myself.

Freakin sweet right? So I tried not to freak out about the need for calories or the feeling of fullness when I *should* be starving. Nope, I'm listening to this big ole body of mine. I'm going to do what it wants. As long as I write it down honestly, I can eat it. Well ok thats a lie - I can't eat grains or legumes and I'm limiting my sugar intake - but that's because my body feels better that way. Grains really make me tired, hungry, and make my skin look less clear. Legumes - well I'm just listening to mark's daily apple on that part. Sugar - duh, there are 2093239028 books on why sugar should be, at the very least, limited and avoided. This is a subject I have yet to cover with my kidlets - they might revolt and take over at the thought of no sugar.

Ok that's all I got - its late and I have to be up early to drive to my friend's house. Her ultrasound is tomorrow and I'm going - takin the kids too! We're BEYOND excited - total baby hounds in this house.