Ever wanna say?

Ever wanna call out to your people? Ever want to say "Come here fellow fattie! Lettuce do this together!" and then laugh at your little pun of course.

That's what I'm feeling right now. Someone do this too - someone motivate me while I motivate you! Someone...pass the damn salad! And load that damn thing with veggies - not processed meatfoods, cheese and 1/2 a bottle of ranch! Hell, toss the damn ranch, you know you keep a bottle in your purse and that's just wrong.

Today I feel fat and empowered - and empowered fatty who's not thinkin about the next meal or snack. Mmhmm that's me.

I've been keeping a food journal. No goal, no limits, no calorie restrictions set. Just a notebook and a pen.

Why? Because frankly that's all I need to diet. I don't need limits. I just need to honestly write down what I'm eating. Now, to be honest I have to measure things and whatnot, but I'm not saying "Ok only eat 400 calories per meal, 2 snacks at 200 calories each, no sugar, only 20g carbs or less and nothing but water!" nope, not I.

I was already eating primally/paleo/traditionally. One change at a time, right? So I've been doing that for a few months. What that means is that I try to eat less processed foods- the closer to its natural state the better, no grains, avoid sugar, no legumes. That's all. Just stickin to what nature made basically. Now, I'm definitely not perfect, I just try. In fact, I had a very small bowl (about 1/2 cup) of ice cream when we went to a buffet (fat kid's paradise, dieter's hell hole!) for dinner today. I also had ome honey mustard dressing on my salad. But anyway, like I said, I try.

So I'm sticking with my primal eating - it makes my body feel better and makes me more clear/focused. Now I'm writting down what I eat as well. I'm coming up around 1600-1800 a day. Not setting a goal, just eating to satisfaction and writting it down. There is power in the pen damnit! If I could just stick with that in the long run I'd be all hot and stuff again - but forever!

I used to write down what I ate and I did great with it - lost a lot of weight, body was right, hair was right - face is ALWAYS right bebe lol and I felt good. Then I got with my ex and got lazy. yeah - no more of that! Then I had my daughter, then I had 2 spinal surgeries. So 3 surgeries in 2 years and 2 spinal blocks in that time - its been a crazy 2 years! I'm gonna get this weight down for my back. I have degenerative disc disease and I have 1 fusion so far, but 8 other discs that will need to be fused in the future. I'm hoping to get my weight under control before that time comes so that recovery is easier this time!

So anyway, I'm calling my fellow fat girls and boys! Come to me, come to me like I am cake!!! Join me on my mission. Lose some freaking weight!