subliminal guilt

Teh guiltz? I haz it.

After the last post, I had taken a valium. Why? Anxiety keeping me up, that's what its there for. However - valium gave me uncontrollable munchies. Like, I ate even when my mind was protesting! It was INSANE! My hands and feet were determined to get in that kitchen and force food in my mouth.

So yesterday all day I wasn't hungry - I figured the late night munchies were still being digested. I forced some brocolli in my mouth and around 7 I ate some tilapia. That was it. Oh I had a bit of cream cheese before bed - carbs before bed are supposed to help sleep and sleep is something I need. Today I'm having the same thing going on. I'm just not hungry. Its noon and I've had lemonade so far - crystal light at that. This can't be normal. I know that I need to fuel my body and such but um...wtf? Its hard to eat when you're just not feelin it.

I'm hoping that my confession (that involves colby jack slices and pepperoni) will help me get out of this no-eatin funk. Its very blah. I no like.